Depression. One minute it could have you confined to a mattress for days on end. The next, it has you out in the world looking for adventure, because you feel as though your days will soon be coming to an end.
That feeling you get from your first heartbreak, the one that stops you dead in your tracks, accompanied with consistent thoughts of self-doubt, and the relentless thought of “why even bother to go on,” — that is depression, and it is all the time.
Most suffer in silence, while others preach it to the world. But regardless of the volume of the cries, they’re still all filled with seemingly endless pain.
Depression has this not-so-funny habit of causing us to lose interest in the things we once loved more than anything, the things that brought us the most joy, be it a budding romance, an appetite for adventure, or what was once thought to be an everlasting eagerness for social interaction.
Depression leaves you feeling terrible, even though everything in your life is on the up and up.
With depression, you don’t need a reason to feel like everything is crashing down around you.
You just do. You just feel.
Depression is a slippery eel that always manages to find a way to slither into the sanctity of our mind, even though we do everything within our power to keep it out.
Quite like an unwanted house guest, depression doesn’t need a reason to come over; it just barges in any time it wants.
It feels as though you are on the other side of the glass, watching your life uncontrollably unfold before your very eyes. Like a deer in the headlights, watching a car zoom towards it at 150 kilometres an hour, all you can do is helplessly watch as your life is forcefully taken away.
That is what depression is like. For the deer, given the choice, what is the point in moving — only to have to live the same battle day in and day out.
Depression is unbiased and wants everybody on its team. Those we believe to be the strongest and appear the happiest are often the worst sufferers of it. It’s assumed that they do not require any help.
For those who are currently suffering with depression, you do not have to be ashamed for feeling what you feel. Do not be afraid to speak to those who will listen.
For those who know someone who suffers with depression, do not allow them to push you away. Let them know that you are here for them — not as a fellow sufferer, but as an understanding companion.
Depression does not have to mean the end. It can represent a new beginning. Acknowledging the problem is the first step upon the path to rejuvenation.